I apologize in advance for these ramblings of a very tired, and warn down mother who is in need of some reflection of her purpose. Feel free to read ahead, or just enjoy the pictures. I feel that I need to document this here so that it doesn't get colored on, or have juice spilled on it, mistakenly thrown away, or buried in a box somewhere. I want to start with my Karson...
My first born, my best big boy. The protector. Have I told you lately how much of a help you are? And that I love the way you interact with the other kids. I love how you sneak in a cuddle, and then look around to make sure that noone else saw. I love that you love to learn, and to read. Have I told you that you a wonderful example in the gospel for your family. I am proud of your choice to be baptized. I love how much you love the lord. I love your sense of adventure...always looking toward the future, just like this picture. Always remember how much I love you right now!!
Oh Abby my Abby..you give new meaning to the song "Mama said their'd be days like this!" My Princess, My Little Girl, My Cheerleader, and my best Girlfriend.
I hope that we can always stay as close as we are now. Have I told you, that I do notice how hard you try to clean up your room all by yourself? And that I know it was an accident that you left your waxy lipstick in your pants pocket? I love the fun that we have just us. I love to go get "Diet Coke" slurpees, and then go shoe shopping. No one would guess your only 5. I love your independant spirit, which also is the hardest part of being your mom. I would not change that for anything, as I am sure that Heavenly Father blessed you with that for some greater reason. Have I told you how much I love your imagination? Your going to be a wonderful mother. I love what a loving sister you are to Luke, and Karson (most of the time). I love to watch the joy in your eyes when daddy tells you it's "Hot Tub Time". I cherish the times that you sneak into bed with me when you think I'm asleep, and then wake me up with your big brown eyes. What a way to greet the day. I love you!!
And my Luke..the best surprise ever.
You are my solice....my peacemaker. Even though your so young, I love how we can communicate. I love how you greet me every morning with a big "Hi", and huge toothless smile. I love our cuddle times at night, just before bed (Dr. Lindsay is going to kill me if I don't quit giving you that bottle, but I just can't help it). I love how you grab my cheeks, and then we touch foreheads, or rub noses. You are such a loving boy. I love that you have no fear, and a go get em look on life. I hope that it stays with you. I love how you know exactly what you want, and will scream until we figure it out, and then are back to your happy self. I am so glad that our Father in Heaven blessed me with such a wonderful gift. I love you.
And Aaron, first of all this picture is the only one that we have with all five of us in it. So Have I told you lately that I want a REAL FAMILY PICTURE?
Have I told you how lucky I am to have such a wonderful companion? You are a wonderful provider, and head of our family. Your are my best friend!!! I always know that you love me!! It can be a glance in the midst of caios, or wisking me off on a moments notice for an adult weekend, or just an amped up fountain drink after a long day with the kids. Thank you for being my rock. I love the different relationships that you have with each of the kids. They all love you so much. Thank you for respecting our differences, and letting me take the kids to church. I hope someday you will fully understand how much that means to me. I love you more than words.
I am so blessed with such a wonderful family, and friends. This move has really sent me for a loop, trying to find my place again...but I'm ALMOST back baby!! Thanks for reading.
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